My Crazy Life

Too Many Thoughts

Sun, 20 Nov 2005 16:36:58 GMT

so, lately i have had way too many thoughts running through my mind. it has gotten me down. these thought just continue to circle my brain and it makes it really hard to think and concentrate. i can't get them out of my head. i am going crazy and i don't know what to do....

Everytime I see your face,
It makes me crazy,
Not out of hate or disdain,
But out of passion,
Why are you beginning to take over every inch of my mind,
With your subtle hints of want,
You make me crazy,
Out of passion not of hate.

hmm...

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 02:26:46 GMT

have you ever just wanted to hug somone and never let go because they seem like they need it?? i have a friend that i feel like needs that and i just hope he realizes that i'm here!

I'm Confused

Tue, 18 Oct 2005 15:50:44 GMT

have you ever had that feeling like something is your fault? i hate that feeling...the feeling of guilt. why is this coming over me? why? why do i constantly feel like it is my fault? in this particular situation i really feel like it is all because of me. i feel like if it was not for me, then this wouldn't of happened. why do i have to care soo much?!?!?! why why why?!?!?!?! life right now is just getting overwhelmingly confusing and now i'm in a moral predicament with myself--never a good thing!

life is good

Sat, 10 Sep 2005 02:45:58 GMT

life is so good right now, i met a boi and we are dating...nough said!!

boo on you

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 05:03:08 GMT

seriously...i wish people could just take the hint!!

long time

Sun, 21 Aug 2005 17:18:37 GMT

long time no update...things have been pretty good since the last time that i updated! i moved into bsu on august 12th and i must say, band camp was a lot of fun but it was a week of hell...i met some really awesome people, i mean extremely awesome, they are james and rebecca and they helped me make it through band camp without constantly thinking about home. i do miss home a lot. i miss all my friends there and then on top of that i miss my family and my doggies and kitties, lol, i know..i'm a nerd!! i can't wait until i go to the lake on saturday...frances is going with me and i miss her so much, it will have been three weeks since i have seen her and i am very very excited! during the summer we spent everyday together and i can't believe that it will have been three weeks...it is hard to leave someone who you saw everyday and then go three weeks without seeing them...that is like a smoker quitting cold turkey...lol!
mt room mate and i get along great. i think it will be a pretty drama-less year. we both want to get the same thing outta school and we realize that we both just need our space! it is cool...this year with him won't be bad at all!
classes start tomorrow...ugh
well, that is all for now..i will hopefully update a bit more frequently!

WONDERFUL

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 16:39:54 GMT

things are just going great for me right now...i couldn't ask for anything more!!

Summer '05

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 05:04:08 GMT

Summer so far is fucking amazing...I LOVE IT!!

blah

Thu, 26 May 2005 22:33:41 GMT

i am about to go to the evening of excellence and i really don't want to go becuz i know that it is going to be long and boring! oh well, i might get a surprise scholarship though...so hopefully i will get that...that would make the evening worth it i suppose! well, i'm out for now....later homies!

YAY

Wed, 25 May 2005 19:18:16 GMT

there are many things in my life that are just going great.
1) last day of high school yesterday
2) got my apple laptop yesterday
3) got a job offer to tech a pit for their five days of band camp=> $250 pay
4) graduation friday
5) leave for germany in less than a week

things are just going really well right now...it will be PIMP if my entire summer goes this well!

almost out

Mon, 23 May 2005 04:54:47 GMT

i'm almost done with high school...and i can't believe it..it just seems so weird!

Excited

Fri, 20 May 2005 21:36:29 GMT

well, i officially have 1 1/2 days of high school left and i seriously couldn't be more excited. even though i know i'm going to miss the people next year but i am just ready to move on. sure it is going to be weird but life goes on and in college you experience the best time of your life and i can't wait.
other than that i really have nothing else to talk about...the end of high school is really the only thing that is on my mind right now!

ready to get out

Wed, 18 May 2005 21:58:32 GMT

i'm so tired of living in my house...lol. i get in arguments with my parents about anything and everything. i am just getting sick of it i guess. i'm just ready to get out. if i don't get out soon then i think that i'm going to scream!

First Entry

Tue, 17 May 2005 20:42:18 GMT

Well, this is my first Livejournal entry. Not quite sure what to say. I will update later is I can think of something!